Single girl in the city

I moved to Chicago for adventure.  I moved to this great city to discover new people and new opportunities.  I had no idea what was in store for me.  I am an actress with high hopes, but I am very realistic when it comes to paying bills.  I have a day job that I don't hate, but it definitely does not come close to the passion I feel for the stage. 

I am single.  Single is a dirty word for some people, filled with shame and embarrassment.  For me, it means independence. It means freedom to get in the car and go when I want to leave.  You can't leave and be in a relationship.  It gets confusing for the guy, in my experience.  In the past, guys didn't understand my need to get in the car and drive away. 

Commitment scares me.  That's why Chicago is a good fit for me right now.  I don't have to commit to it.  I just have to enjoy it for the time being.  I have relationships with cities more than with men.  I was married to Nashville for a few years, but I decided to get divorced and run off to Chicago to start a relationship here.  So far it has been a rocky road.  Probably because I divorced Nashville.  You can't divorce a city without paying for your infidelity in the next city.  So, here I am.  Trying to navigate this marriage of sorts, wandering if this marriage will work out.  Nashville is always luring me back home, but it may not want me when it sees what I have become.  I have changed with this big city life.  I have become scared of critters and heat, while being comfortable while walking on concrete in the dead of winter. Only time will tell.  I am here to pursue my passion for theatre.  This is all I know for now. And, as far as real human relationships go, I am a single girl in the city.  And I love it.